It's okay not to be okay, a wobble

4th August 2022

A beautiful morning walk, sea dipping & picking wild blackberries. Feeling grateful to have this right on our doorstep 🙌🏻

This weeks felt tough with lots of tears, as trying to stay positive all of the time isn’t as easy as it sounds. Distractions can only last for so long. Having a down patch is all part of this rollercoaster of emotions, while I’m healing from my last operation I’m now mentally having a bit of a battle with facing the fear of what might be coming next. The treatment plan. The plan I’ve been wanting since day one and now it’s on the horizon I feel like running in the opposite direction.

But then I met this lovely lady for my first counselling session yesterday and I couldn’t be more thankful for a friend pointing me in her direction. She was bloody great. Telling me to stop telling everyone ‘I’m fine’, that it’s okay to have good days and bad days. Good weeks and bad weeks.

This isn’t a post being all doom and gloom because today I feel so lucky to have hope.

The sun is shining and I was able to swim in the sea for the first time in a month!🌞